Life is pretty hard right now. I’m still in crisis and still struggling daily with my mental health. I don’t quite know how I’m managing to keep myself here, but i am. This week is going to be tough - I have a visit from the Home Treatment Team, where they’re going to grill me about why things fell apart over the weekend and I won’t know how to answer their questions. I’ll have my last session with the therapist I’ve been seeing since January, who’s been my one constant, my solid, the cornerstone of my professional support. I have a meeting with my manager at my house. I have a meds review on Wednesday where I’ll find out who I’m getting handed over to after the Home Treatment Team are done with me, a psychologist visit on Thursday. I feel overwhelmed by it all and not sure how I’m going to get through. I’m trying so hard to keep it all together, but my ability to do that feels like it’s slowly decreasing. My work are still going to be cutting my pay by 50% because I have the audacity to be mentally ill for an extended period of time.
Here’s a couple of links if anyone fancies showing some kindness to an internet stranger. One is for the crowdfunder my friends set up for me to help me deal with the paycut and the extra costs of being disabled. The other is to my amazon wishlist, for if anyone wants to send me some random cheer to give me a little pep to get through this week.